My kiddos have a church event that they are involved with every morning this week, so while they were keeping busy, my mom, Kolby, and I went to Star$'s cafe. My mom treated me to a yummy drink and was in line placing the order, while I stood rather close to the remaining table that had customers about ready to leave. It was the perfect table out of the way for Mister, and so I just was playing it cool while they packed up their things.
It was just barely after 10am when my phone rang with the area code 707. I was expecting the Canine Companions phone call, but I really thought it would come much later in the day. I ditched the waiting for the table, and took Kolby with me to the sidewalk where I could chat more in private.
Needless to say the phone call was nothing to celebrate over. I will fully admit I am disappointed that Haddie did not make a Pre-match this week. I know that not every puppy would match, because more Puppies than People are invited to Team Training. But I was hoping that Haddie would be one of the four paws to find her Forever Person.
After much conversation with my mom about the "What now's" and texting my very sweet friend to hear more encouragement before I drove to pick up my kiddos and share the news ... I am still an open book and will say that while I have moments of Hope, and moments when I am also very Sad.
While Canine Companions shared that Haddie will stay in Advanced Training and hopefully match in November, I received her July Advanced Training report just hours after the phone call and that too was not much to celebrate over. I am very worried that Haddie has had enough time in the kennel, and if her friends leave campus, and she remains with new dogs, and new everything to "start over" and "wait around" for November, that she will just decide "this is enough."
I can't say as though I blame her. It is enough. Right?! I know I signed up for this Roller Coaster, but can I get off now?!
Haddie's report was still very positive in all the right areas, but the words, "Showing signs of stress" were stated. That makes me very sad. Enough said.
Her positives were very positive, which certainly gives Hope that a match will be in her future. It all is determined at how long she has to wait, and how stressed she becomes during that time.
I am starting to really grasp holding strong to the fact that God knows exactly where Haddie needs to be, and for whatever reason, that next chapter can not happen just yet. While the wait and the excitement for the future is filled with many ups and downs, we must Trust that He really is in control of this entire situation.
This is tough, but doable.